nothing's ever gonna go right for me huh? first was my eyes then my overseas studies then now this, nothing's ever gonna go right. why cant you just drop me something?

dear god

i think its very unkind of you to lift me up so high and throw me back down again. tell me this isnt what is happening and everything will be ok?

it was a day out with sh and i enjoyed every single second of it! :) the endless talks and just being able to hang out with her is something i wouldnt trade anything for. im really happy now :)

my life has been doing fine lately. was down with flu and bad cough last week but feeling really much better this week. yup and TAC has really been stretched thin the past few weeks with lots of presentations and projects. luckily everyone really helped each other and the process has been really enjoyable :D thanks guys i really like the feeling where everyone helps each other.

there are times where we will feel down and the conversations we have with each other really spurs me on. im so thankful to have met every single one of you in TAC. As much as i want to go on course with you guys, there is a part of me that wants to start studying first. Really, i do not know where this road is going to lead me to but i just wanna say its been a joy knowing you guys and whether i make it or not we will still be friends and colleagues forever alright guys? :)

so ive been thinking really hard about what i want in life and we are all waiting for that special someone/something to come knocking on our door. how do we actually get people to notice we have a door to knock on? i hope i can do something to make it happen, i just need a smile back from you

ok things are looking really fine now. ive applied for a scholarship and things are looking really good. i really hope i get it, from what i gathered from the interviewer and desmond things are looking really great. :) one thing though, im really sorry glamis, i really didnt want to take your slot im really sorry :/

so many things have happened and i myself cant keep up much less understand them. i really guess looking at the things where it is going now it really makes me feel very down. though i already see it youre moving on yet i still hope that there could still be us :/ i secretly hope that you would turn around one day...

sometimes i wish i can save you
and there's so many things i want you to know
i wont give up till its over
if it takes you forever, i want you to know

that if you fall, stumble down
ill pick you up off the ground
if u lose faith in you, ill give u strength to pull through
tell me you wont give up
cos ill be waiting if u fall, you know
ill be there for you

i guess its time to update my life. Been a month since i had my eye surgery and now my eyesight is better than ever, its 6/5 and 6/6 now. Well, not the best they have treated cos my friends some had 6/4 6/3 and even 6/2 vision but i cant complain.

The past 2months was really a blast. Things has been moving by so fast that I was caught in the moment. I met this really nice girl and spent almost every available hour with one another. Great memories were made however, things did not turn out what i hope it would've. right now im just trying to get over it and move on. as much as i want to, moving on is easier said than done, the hweelings are definitely stil there and i dont believe it can go away that easily. then again ive to try, its the only way to make myself feel better :) thanks ZHENGYI for listening to me advicing me haha cya at work later